juw’s

In this post i’ll try writing with english.. just want to learn and practice my english. so here i am with ENGGRES (enggres is english with javanese accent, so just imagine i speaks enggres.. hahahaha)

have u ever beeen in this situaton?

u face a very new phase of ur life.. u just know a piece about that world.. u think it is started with blank. and u’re afraid to face it.. but u know u have to.

afraid of the failure(s) that might be come into my way. afraid of uncontrolled upcoming things .

i am in that position.. afraid.. foolishly afraid.

i know the theory of faith. that is the faith’s contrary (btw, kbalikan iki boso enggrese opo se?) afraid is the absence of faith.

i know it.

i’m trying to have faith on this one but somehow that fear is coming again and again.

fortunately…

i have a very good and wise experienced father.

last night he called me and i told him about my fear.

he told me this:

“it’s normal if u are afraid. But to be a man, u have to make a decision. Before doing that, Think about it very carefully and objectively. After u decide. Never turn back again. in this phase.. u have decided to take the risk. just have faith.

And u know what?

if…

if something not in ur plan coming, maybe it’s His plan… His plan to make u a better person. make u a better experienced person.. and maybe it’s not ur path.

dont be afraid.

Before daddy believed in God, daddy always had this in mind.-if rice has been a porridge, dont expect it to be back to rice. Just do with the porridge.. enjoy it- (in java he said, kalo nasi udah jadi bubur ,buburnya dijenang dikasi gula dan nikmatilah..) The point is.. never regret. just do with what u have…-…

wooow.. u know what?

i think i dropped one micro teardrop after he said that to me while he was telling the whole experiences he had while he started a family. started what he does, changing what he did, and do what he does until now.

I am glad having a brave, big hearted, and loving daddy

after those conversation. i come to this conclusion

“Failure.. if u want to come.. just come.. but as long as i stand up here with my God, and his grace for giving me a great family, i am not letting u just come easily… i’ll make ur way a very very very very hard way.. so BE prepared, Failure.. cause i’m more prepared right now. HAHAHAHA”

…..

“but if u accidentally come, I think i’m gonna enjoy the porridge.. cause however sometimes porridge can be more delicious than rice..”

enjoy ur porridge

(read: enjoy what u have now)

GBU